Every now and then I come face to face with a GIANT reminder to be thankful for what I have.

In a world where we are bombarded with images of people living “perfect” lives, I’m embarrassed to admit that at times I wonder, rather, I feel bad for myself that I’m not living that perfect life, too. This is a feeling I’m not proud of, in fact I’m quite embarrassed that I entertain those thoughts at all. I’m married to a wonderful man, whom I can’t imagine life without him in it. I have an amazing family, and equally amazing friends. We own a home and have jobs that pay the bills and allows us to put a little away each month. But when I find myself going down the rabbit hole of “if I could only make more money,” the blinders go on to how much I have to be thankful for.

Earlier this week I was headed out to get lunch, I was annoyed and grumpy. I had forgotten my lunch and was grumbling that I had to spend money, “If only I was more disciplined and less forgetful! Pull it together T!” As I walked up to my lunch destination, I was approached by man who asked if I had a couple dollars to spare. It was pretty evident that this man was struggling. His clothes were ripped and dirty, he carried a backpack and garbage bag with him, and by the way he had bundled himself up I was pretty sure he didn’t own a coat. I rarely carry cash anymore, and that day was no exception. I apologized and said that I didn’t have any and went in to the restaurant. As I stood in line to order a wave a shame washed over me. My grumbling about having to go out for lunch, and my frustration over the cost of living not “allowing” me to live my perfect fairy tale life was so petty. I have a good job and a steady paycheck. I have a home and car, and I know when my next meal will be. And while I don’t think I’m unique in wishing I brought home a bigger paycheck, I’ve never been in a position of needing to ask strangers for money.

After ordering my lunch to go, I went outside and tracked the man down. I told him that I knew it wasn’t going to solve his need for a couple bucks, but that I hoped a hot lunch would be helpful. His eyes opened wide and with a big smile said “God bless you ma’am.”

I do feel like God blessed me. In that moment, I was so awesomely reminded of how much I have to be thankful for.